Obscure Arcanum - Chapter Five

The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another; and his humblest hour is when he compares the volume as it is with what he vowed to make it. - James M. Barrie

A diary (also called journal) is a record (originally in handwritten format) with discrete entries arranged by date reporting on what has happened over the course of a day or other period. A personal diary may include a person's experiences, and/or thoughts or feelings, including comment on current events outside the writer's direct experience. Someone who keeps a diary is known as a diarist.

I've been keeping an online diary since May 4th, 2014. I've never written a diary before, because I honestly didn't see the point. My analytical side only saw vulnerability, and it never would have occurred to me that there could be a usefulness to writing down my personal thoughts. I understand that many do find comfort with keeping track of dates, weather, events, and the simple passage of time. My maternal grandmother kept a written diary, cataloguing birthdays, and her own thoughts and feelings; it was helpful for her to remember dates and people, as well as bragging rights to having a better record of weather than the Canadian meteorological institute. Mine started out much simpler; it was a way for my mom to keep track of me from day to day, but soon morphed into something much more. Now, I look forward to writing daily, and make great efforts when I can.

Everyone has a story to tell. Our personal history is what molds us; like a shapeless lump of steel being beaten into shape on a blacksmith's anvil, everyone is the sum of their experiences in life. I am no different, and my past is what has made me the man you see today. Our struggles, gains and losses, are not the defining factor of an individual, but rather, how we choose to deal with such struggle is what actually defines a human being. The choices we make determine our personality. My goal in telling my story is two-fold; entertainment for some, and a chance for me to reflect and grow on my experiences. When I go back and reread what I've written in my journey, you can see the moments where I was struggling, as well as, see the times I succeeded. This is my goal, by continuing to record events and my thoughts, I am endevouring to keep a written record of my choices and how things are affecting me. 

This diary was originally meant to merely be a way for me to keep in contact with my loved ones I left behind in rural Northern Ontario, but has since become  much, much more! If you are reading this journal for the first time, I would recommend you start at Chapter One, but if you truly wish to experience the whole story, I suggest you read the Turn The Pages series; after all, the best place to start reading is at the beginning.
If you've ever wanted to read someone's diary, here's your chance........... 

January 1st, 2016
Happy New Year!

"New Year's Day. A fresh start. A new chapter in life waiting to be written. New questions to be asked, embraced, and loved. Answers to be discovered and then lived in this transformative year of delight and self-discovery. Today carve out a quiet interlude for yourself in which to dream, pen in hand. Only dreams give birth to change". - Sarah Ban Breathnach

Well hello, Dear Diary, How's things in 2016? Any changes? As for me, I've decided to make a few changes in my life. Everyone makes resolutions and I don't believe mine are that outrageous, but I think writing them down for myself will be therapeutic, so here goes.

A) I'm going to drink less. I want to get into the best shape possible for myself, and having a bloated liver thwarts that, not to mention the dent in my limited budget. While I may have this preconceived notion of attracting or finding a mate at karaoke night or enjoying a bottle of wine, I need to remind myself of my second resolution.
HAPPY NEW YEAR, from London Ontario

2) I'm give up on "finding a mate". I have tons of friends! Some of those are really good friends.... Some of those really good friends are women..... Let's face it, girls don't want love and romance; the ideals I maintain are not consistent with my reality of dating in our modern world. I need to change, or simply wait for the right one to come along. So it is that after months of trying dating sites, etc, I am not going to go out of my way to find a partner in crime. My plan for this is to focus on me and build upon my own desires and needs.

D) I'm going to get back into a workout routine. 

Other than that, my life is doing well. I'm on track with my medical specialists and drug treatment. I'm very involved in the Church, Amtgard, and writing. I am enjoying the luxury of playing Mechwarrior Online, with all the graphics and details of the 30th century battlefields. 

Frank is growing! I can't wait for the longer days of sun to kick him into a growth spurt. He likes his perch at the window, and when the sun shines brightly he casts a green hue to the entire living room. You remember Frank, right? My tiny stick of bamboo I bought for $1.50 at WalMart? The one I transplanted as a physical representation of my "putting down roots" in Southern Ontario? I thought so... Knew you would remember.... Anyway, he's growing like a weed.

I do miss my family back in North-Western Ontario, however, I certainly don't miss the lack of energy, or colder climate. Things are good for me here....

....2016 looks promising. With so much going on with all my friends, and my involvement in the First St. Andrew's Church, I am very busy. 

I'm happy.

All the best to you and yours. God bless.

January 2nd
I got some writing done yesterday, although I'm no where near caught up to where I'm supposed to be. I left my glasses at a friends house for a week, and only recently got them back. What a difference it is being able to see clearly. Don't get me wrong, I'm not blind, but when it comes to writing and having to read, and reread what I've written, it starts to become a chore when I'm squinting. Anyway, I've managed to crack off a couple short stories, but as I said, I'm behind a bit.

Had an interesting thought. Why am I writing?

Why does anyone do anything? To be fair, at one time writing used to be something I considered "fun". I still enjoy getting my thoughts down for others to read, but it has become just like a job when it comes to my published work. I have to force myself to write books in the same manner that most people get up and go to a job. The same phenomenon occurred when I started up my paintball park in Devlin, Ontario; I thought it would be thoroughly enjoyable to run a paintball park, but after a few years it became a low-paying job just like anything else I've ever done. This still doesn't explain why I keep writing though..........

......I want to get my stories and artwork done so it's out of my head. 

I have a story to tell. When you go back to my childhood there are vivid moments of me being a performer or storyteller. It's something that has been with me all my life. It's only in the later years, however, that I'm taking my role as a muse seriously. I want to become famous! It's not about the fame, but rather something I feel I'm supposed to do. For that reason I believe I am in the best place possible for me at this point in time. 

Memo to me: Go back and restart the hunt for a publisher. I did this last year at the start, and most of the publishers explain how it will take up to six months to get a response. I sent out a dozen applications last year, but didn't receive so much as a reply. Guess it's time to reapply.

Today marks another chapter in Silva Urbem. This will be the first field day in 2016, and it's at Victoria Park. I'm looking forward to seeing my friends, as well as, getting a chance to swing a boffer and cast some spells. 

Well, talk soon. Have a great weekend!

January 4th
Good morning, Dear Diary. How are you? Me? Not so great. Yesterday was a complete bust for me, as I ran out of meds a few days ago and it finally caught up to me. I was cramping and bleeding and could barely move! Spent the whole day going back and forth to the bathroom. To much information? Sorry. It's kind of a shitty subject.

FORTUNATELY, one of my buddies took pity on me and brought over a couple of grams. How do you spell relief? 

Unfortunately, I missed Church. Ugh! I had big plans to go to Belgareth combat sports in the afternoon and I missed that too. I ended up not even being able to lean over a keyboard to be able to type...... 

.......so it was hard day.

Anywho, today looks to be a bit better. I'm still feeling the aftereffects of being in pain for so long, but I have enough medication to last me a couple days. I'm going to knuckle down and get some writing done. Hopefully I catch up to where I'm supposed to be.

Have a good day.

January 5th
I have an appointment with the Canadian cannabis clinic this afternoon. Hopefully that goes well. It just seems like there are so many hoops to jump through simply to get relief from my daily pain.

I actually got a decent amount of material written yesterday. You should read it! Check out the latest chapter in our adventures in Silva Urbem!! 

More writing today, and perhaps I'll clean the house. Talk soon.

January 6th
It's amazing what I can do when I'm not writhing in pain; yesterday, I managed to type two more chapters. Rise of the Undead and Just Kidding!! Have a read.... I'll wait.

Done? What do you think?

The sun is shining, and the birds are singing just outside my window. The temperature is just below the freezing mark. A nice day. So what are my plans? To stay indoors. [chuckles] I'm not a real fan of Winter....

....so, today includes writing and cleaning house. I know it's Wednesday, and I'm supposed to go to Fanshaw park for Amtgard, but I have an appointment later and the other officers will be running the games tonight. Lots to do....... Later 'gater.

January 7th
I got my marijuana license renewed for the next three months. Apparently this is a thing where each three months you have to go and get recertified. I don't even know how to describe how silly this is!!

Choir tonight, and I'm looking forward to that.

I got another chapter completed yesterday, and I'll have another one done by today. While this isn't a novel, it certainly is attracting quite a few readers. Check it out! "I Heard You Started a Riot"

Have a great day.

January 11th
Whoa! Where does the time go?

This weekend was pretty darn awesome! I was busier than a cat trying to cover poop on a marble floor.......

........Friday was spent garbing and crafting to get ready for Saturday's Amtgard game in Victoria Park. I had a hard time falling asleep for being so excited. I finally caught up to the storyline in our role playing adventures with the short story entitled, "The Letter". Have a read.

Saturday was awesome!  The players were overjoyed to throw themselves into character and go on a treasure hunt around Victoria Park. Once they finally found all the missing pieces of "a broken tablet", they had to decipher the runes to get the clue to their next part of the quest.

Sunday, I went to Church and sang my heart out. Tom was the minister and he always does a great job! After church I ran out to the parking lot to meet up with Jeff to go to Kitchener for more Amtgard; they were having a mid-reign celebration and I was excited to attend.

Which brings us to Monday. Good morning! Hope your weekend was as good as mine.

Today involved waiting for the mail to get my newest prescription. Ugh! Stupid snail mail I predict problems. Remember my missing wallet? I have no photo ID, and if the mail isn't delivered to my door I'll be forced to spend half the day trying to get it. (If at all)

I'd like to go and get more material for sewing. I'm actually enjoying myself when I craft.

Hope you have a great day!

10 minutes later
YAY! The mail came....... Now I guess I'll concentrate on cleaning and writing. A trip to the sewing store is in order......

January 12th
Good morning. It's snowing. The temperatures are actually Winter-like, and we are getting our first real snow of the year. Yes, we've had snow, but it hasn't stuck around; this snowfall will remain until Spring finally warms things up.

"It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas"..... Too soon?

I have more sewing to do today. I also have to work on the storyline for Silva Urbem. Talk soon.

January 13th
Good morning world. It's rather cold out today, so bundle up.

I logged onto my account this morning, and was amazed to realize I have over 24,000 views on my website! Wow!  I cannot say thank you enough to my loyal readers! I remember when I thought a few thousand readers was impressive, but now I'm breaking records I never even once considered. I couldn't have done this without you! Thank you so very much!

 Lots to do today. Once I stop cramping and imbibe some medication, I'll be cleaning up and getting ready for an Arts and Crafts session across town. We're building boffers tonight, and I'll be making "The Sword of Dreams". A massive long sword that has magic powers. It will be for our continuing adventure in Silva Urbem, and is being made specifically for the storyline. Should be a lot of fun. Can't wait!

The writing is certainly coming along! I'm loving how the characters are really fleshing out.

I should jet. I have a full day ahead of me, and I'm not feeling too bad today. Couldn't say the same for last night, as I was barely able to move. Damn thing comes and goes at whim apparently.

Have a good one.

January 15th
A few things of major importance have occurred within the last couple days. Some good, and one really disturbing event.....

......Let's start with the good news. I made my first Great Sword "boffer". On Wednesday night I went to a an Arts and Crafts session at Kitteh and Schnitt's house where I ended up building four new weapons. The great sword, entitled "The Sword of Dreams", will become an artifact in our role playing session in Silva Urbem. At over 1.7 meters long, it has the reach and power to bring a new level of dynamics to our games.

I finished the chapter where the players went on a treasure hunt in Victoria Park last Saturday. I call it "A Clue? Or Dire Warnings?"

Choir was great! We're learning more contemporary music, and while it's a challenge I'm enjoying it immensely!

Now to the bad news......

......I'm thoroughly scared. The sewing machine Diane borrowed me has stopped working.

I'll admit, I cried when I discovered the issue. I was using the machine yesterday afternoon just before choir, and was doing the final stitches on the front of a white stole for the GM. (Game Master) to wear when running campaigns. I wanted a better stitching pattern, so I switched the machine over to a different pattern. I did nothing wrong, but suddenly the machine started to seize up.

I've oiled it each time I went to use it. I've been treating this machine with the utmost respect. I know how to use a sewing machine, and I'm aware not to twist the wheel backwards. I can thread a bobbin correctly, and easily run most sewing machines with some level of competence. I've owned my own machine, and never had any issues with it, regardless of how much I used it.

I'm sick to my stomach, because the last thing Diane said to me was, "You break it, you pay for it".

I'll pay to get it fixed, but I know in my heart that I didn't break it. I've been so super careful with it, because I also know that NO ONE lends out their sewing machine without SOME reservations. Diane was no different, and I almost had to beg to use it. Now it's not working, and I'm the last one to use it.

As I said, I'm scared to phone her and tell her the bad news.

I have a bag full of material to sew. Now, I'm afraid I won't get the chance. My stomach is rolling from pain, but now it's twisted in knots over this.

I got my start as a young man, learning to sew from my maternal Grandfather. From there I learned in 4-H how to sew buttons, and patching clothes. When I got older I started making costumes for Hallowe'en. Eventually I started making paintball uniforms for "Spirit Fire Park". I can sew from memory, and while I have used patterns before, I am very comfortable crafting things from images in my head.

I am at a sincere loss over this development.

Guess I need to bite the bullet and call Diane. I'm so upset over this!

The house really needs a good cleaning. I am going to be working on the next chapter of Silva Urbem, as I've caught up in the storyline. Hope today brings better luck...................

January 19th
Where does the time go?

I have to admit, Diane took the news of her sewing machine breaking down, pretty decently. I know in my heart she was thoroughly disappointed, however, she refrained from any backlash and agreed to allow me to pay for the machine to get fixed. Now remember, Dear Diary, I'm on a fixed budget so this is going to hurt. Regardless, it was in my care and I'm responsible. Once again I thank God for allowing me the privilege and honour to be best friends with such a wonderful person as Diane!!

Amtgard is great! Things are really skipping along for our little shire. I wrote another chapter in the Urbem Arcana, entitled, "The Library Vault". I feel that the more I write about our adventures, the better they are getting!

The weather is colder this week. Winter has finally caught up to us, and the recent cold snap is once again reminding us that we are powerless in the face of nature. I'm only going out when I have to, as I strongly dislike the cold.

Recent update: Things are the same.
-Frank is growing
-No girlfriend
-Acting is slow, and although I keep reporting in to my talent agent I'm not getting any calls.
-Choir is great!
-My health is a day-to-day thing. Some days are good, while others find me unable to do much.
-I'm blessed to have so many good friends!
-My writing is improving.

On a side note, a buddy by the name of Jeff has loaned me his sewing machine. He is the Monarch of Lichwood Grove (Kitchener) and understands my plight. Thank you, Jeff for helping me when the chips were down.

Anywho, I have a story to write and stuff to sew. The house is pretty clean, so I might relax and enjoy the day. I have a bit of medication, so today will be decent.

Hope you have a good one too!

January 22nd
I've been sewing. I'm halfway done a full set of mage robes.  I've got no time today it seems, and Diane just messaged me saying she's coming to pick me up.

I did get my newest chapter finished. It's entitled "Are You Sure?" Have a read...

Talk later.

January 24th
I woke up with a head cold. I'm coughing and my sinuses are plugged up. Yuck! I don't get sick often, but it still sucks when I do! I woke up to the alarm telling me to get ready for Church, and instead spent the whole morning in a foggy haze. Not good!

Anyway, It's now afternoon and I've got nothing real done. While I have done some writing and character portrayals to help complete the backgrounds on our Amtgard storyline, the house is a mess and much of my garb smells of campfire smoke. I feel like I should get off my ars and do something real.....

....but! Before I do, perhaps I should regale my adventures and perhaps explain my 4 day absence (Have I really missed writing for four days? Where does the time go?) Anyway, a friend of mine ended up in the Hospital, so I had to go over and help out instead of going to choir practice on Thursday night. I'm sure Paul and Michelle will understand.

Friday was supposed to be a day of preparing for Saturday, but instead I ended up running around town with Diane. After that I got called back over to my sick friend's house.

The BIG DAY on Saturday was an Amtgard Allthing called "Campfire Killer". It was AMAZING! We had a fairly decent group of players, and it included a campfire, cooking hotdogs, and role play!

For one moment yesterday, I was pretty damned nervous.....

........no one else was around. I had just been dropped off by Jeff, and I was setting things up. As I cleaned up, pushed snow, and tidied the firepit, I noticed there was some smoke coming from the campfire. Apparently, the homeowners had a fire the evening before and a few burning coals still smoldered. When I had unknowingly placed a few bits of paper garbage and sticks on top, they began to catch fire.

"Awesome!", I muttered, realizing that this would make building a fire really easy! As a country boy I had lit my share of fires, and know it takes skill to work with cold, damp fuel, like the few snow coated sticks around the yard. Now, I HAD brought dry firewood with me, as well as, some kindling to help start things, but in cleaning the yard up I had placed a bunch of wet stuff on the campfire.

The smoke started rolling.

Now, I understand that it takes heat to "eat" the smoke, and when fires first get started they have a tendency to smoke, especially when the materials used are wet. My sudden concern, however, was that the smoke was ROLLING across the backyards of at least three neighbours.

Crap! I realize it's Winter and everyone has their windows shut (thank God) but I heard the next door neighbour trying to scrap snow, only to give up (or he was done - I don't know) and go into the house.
"Hurry up! Quit making so much smoke, dammet", I cursed.

I heard the sirens and my heart lept into my throat. Someone had called the fire department on me, I thought.

They were getting closer.

It's just a coincidence, I reminded myself, no one called the authorities on a small backyard fire. Relax.....

...nope. The damned sirens were getting closer and closer.

I got seriously nervous! I haven't actually lit a fire in the city before, and I didn't have a fire permit, because as a contained fire it's not necessary.... But what if?

SON-UV-A-BITCH! They're pulling onto our street!!

I went numb. Literally. My heart sank as I heard the sirens screaming up to the front of the house. I knew it was a fire truck because of the way the siren sounded.

My mind numb from fear, all I could do was watch and wait.

They kept driving.............

.......I'm not sure when I finally started breathing again, but I'm pretty sure it was when the first truck was at the next intersection. Suddenly another truck flew by. Then a Police car......

.....but they weren't there for me.

Finally the fire stopped being ridiculous and ceased belching smoke like a chimney. Yay! 

........BTW, on last night's CTV London news, they explained the emergency; a fire broke out in an apartment complex. I man is injured, and total damage is estimated at $10K. The residents are now back in their homes.

Anyway...off to get something done. Have a good one.

Nerf guns I'm painting for Doompunk LARP
January 25th
Good morning, Dear Diary, it's Monday.

I'm feeling a bit better today. I'm pretty certain it was the campfire smoke that has hit me with a sudden sinus infection. I'm stricken with fits of coughing, and being forced to blow my nose constantly.

Today is a chance to catch up on housework. My goal is to get some painting done, as well as, some writing and possibly dew my newest robes for my mage.

Hope everyone has a good one.

January 26th
It's raining. the temperature is above the freezing mark, and all the snow is quickly melting. What awesome weather for the end of January!! I know that some businesses and such are crying over the warmer temperatures (ski resorts, snowmachines, etc) however, the rest of us are ecstatic we're are cheating cold, old man Winter......

...... I still have the touch of a cold. Sneezing, coughing, and wheezing, I'm not even leaving the house.

I got my newest mage robes finished! Black with red trim, they are soft, and very well made! Even I'm impressed!

The newest chapter is a big one, and it's taking me much longer to work on. So much detail to remember and write.... This one is going to take a while.

I'm painting nerf guns for a friend. There is another LARP system called ELEGY that takes place in the post-apocalyptic future. Nerf guns are allowed in the same way boffers are allowed in Amtgard. Anyway, I'm putting a camo design on one gun, and painting two others to look authentic.

Lots to do, and less time to do it in. Talk soon..

January 27th
Went to bed with barely any snow on the ground, and woke up to 7 CM of the white stuff.

Happy Humpday! Hope you're having a good day, but as for me, Dear Diary, I've reached that part of the month where I've run out of medication. So after I'm done having a rough morning....

...I plan on writing all day. I have to  crack the whip on myself and get the next chapter of Silva Urbem finished.

Speaking of Silva UIrbem, I went in to clean up the redundant website I had originally created. Let me explain.... When I first created the website I used "London LARP". A couple days later I then created the "Urbem Arcana" site, but I used silvaurbem.blogspot...... Long story short, I was told there IS a London LARP society, and we are not it! Oops! We're the Amtgard chapter, and shouldn't be using the londonlarp.blogspot address. [sigh] So, I recreated the whole site with the address silurb.blogspot. It now has a redirect www.silvaurbem.ca (Try it), and links nicely to the Urbem Arcana..... ANYWAY, this morning I went in to delete the extraneous and erroneous website (the London LARP one)


[Sighs heavily] So, I had to go back and recreated the ENTIRE website, complete with links and pictures. There's 40 minutes of my life I'll never get back..... Ugh! Anyway, things are fixed, and the correct website was deleted.

Now that I'm done screwing around, I think I'll see if I can get some work done.

January 29th
Happy Friday!!

I realize I'm missing a day in my journal; Thursday. That's because I went to Diane's house for my weekly visit. A chance to do some shopping, laundry, play with the kidlets, make supper for her family, and spend some quality time with my bestie!! I had a really great day!! Diane even took the time to take some pictures of me in my complete mage garb.

I went to choir practice. What a great time! We're learning more Latin masses, and it's proving to be challenging, but very enjoyable. I really love the fellowship I'm getting from belonging to such a prestigious organization as the First St Andrew's choir!

Today is crunch time for me. I have a story that needs to be finished, so I'll be working hard on that. This weekend is going to be a busy one, so hopefully I can manage to control my cramping and such; Saturday involves going downtown London for another adventure in Silva Urbem, and Sunday is Church followed by a trip to Kitchener for more Amtgard adventures in Lichwood Grove!

Have a safe and happy weekend!

February 1st
Wow! It's already February! Where does the time go? Temperatures are expected to hit 4 degrees today, and with all the warm weather we have no snow. It feels like April.

My weekend was pretty decent.

On Saturday I went to Victoria Park for another session of Amtgard. We had a small turnout, but it was quite fun! I didn't do much on Saturday night except play some Mechwarrior.

Sunday, I went to Church, and then to Kitchener to join their Amtgard field.

Had a bit of an issue on Sunday, but thankfully I managed to find medication on Saturday. When my flare-ups occured, I simply smoked to get rid of the pain and sensations. So thankful I have a way to deal with this crippling problem!

Today is a chance to write. Not much planned today, so I might even clean, or possibly do some sewing.

Have a good one.

February 2nd
Happy Groundhog Day! Turns out the little critter saw his shadow this morning, and that means six more weeks of winter.......

..but, if they are anything like what we've received so far, I'll take it! Today is +5 and sunshine. Tomorrow is supposed to be +10. I'm not making this up. My gawd! Do I ever like the climate here compared to NWO.

Anyway, today is more of the same which is a good thing. I am on page 24 of the newest chapter I'm working on, and the end is not yet in sight!!

Last night was rough. I'm out of medication, and I ended up waking up at 1 am to cramping and bloating. I spent over an hour back and forth to the bathroom, and finally fell asleep by 3ish.....

....apparently my newest batch of meds comes in tomorrow. Still no ID, so let's hope there's no issues, eh? (I have to sign for it, but if no one is here or I don't hear them knock, I have to go claim it at the Post Office...with no ID)

Well, have a good one. I have to jet.

February 4th
Wow! I can't get over this weather! We just shattered the warm weather record yesterday with temperatures more akin to April than February.

Hello world, It's Thursday.

I was supposed to go out with Diane today, but things didn't happen that way......

I went out after Amtgard with a couple of the officers to sing karaoke.We ended up closing the bar, and I chose to sleep over at a friend's house. Knowing that Diane was going to pick me up for our usual weekly get together I woke up early and hopped on my bike to go home.

Travelling down Oxford, I was dodging the poor driving skills of those operating their one tone air conditioned weapons, when I was struck by a white car. The driver was at a full stop and sitting at a stop sign when I proceeded through the intersection. Without warning, she suddenly gunned the engine and tried to pull out into traffic.....

....except, I was now in the intersection.


I ended up in the middle of Oxford, and my bike was run over! The woman comes out crying, and extremely upset. I ended up not getting any contact info, and simply walked home.... I missed Diane, and spent the whole day with stiff muscles and a strained wrist. Things could have been worse!!

So, once again, I'm out a bike. UGH!! That's the 14th time I've been hit by a motor vehicle as a pedestrian,. Something has GOT to change!

February 5th
Good morning world! It's Friday!

I'm still stiff and sore from my bike accident. Not sure what I'm going to do about my wreaked bike... Wow! This is getting ridiculous! I'm not doing anything wrong, and certainly not breaking any laws.... There is just some really piss-poor drivers out there!

Choir was amazing last night! I got a ride with one of the members since I couldn't get there on my own,. I'm really happy with the music we are performing!

Today is going to be a chance to clean up and do some sewing. I will do some writing of course, but I just finished my newest chapter in Urbem Arcana. It's MASSIVE! To give you an idea how long this new chapter is, it's the same length of some of the short stories I sell on my Amazon account!! Have a read if you like. It's entitled, "Ka'Damaenous the Dread.

Talk soon.

February 6th
Whoop! Whoop! It's the weekend!

The sun is shining, and the temperature is supposed to hit +2 today. Another gorgeous winter day (Feels like we're cheating winter somehow)

I'm not feeling too bad today. I had a decent day yesterday and relaxed a bit. I cleaned the house spotless first, because nothing feels better than a clean house! After a while I decided to sew the Silva Urbem flag.....

....I made two 3 x 6 foot flags, and an 8' long pennant. Go me. o.O

I enjoy sewing. It's always satisfying to see what you can make. It's the same as my artwork when I start each project with a clear idea in mind as to what I want to do, I'm never certain how it's going to turn out. I chose to make two flags because it gave me the chance to fix a mistake if I made one (which I did on the second one)

I've got a session of Amtgard this afternoon in Victoria Park. I should get ready. Have a great weekend!

February 9th
I've been busy. I changed my room around and set it up so I can do more crafting. I'm slowly gaining more work as time goes on, because more people are interested in having me paint or sew things for them.

I crafted a new boffer. I have to say it's the best I've made so far.

A friend of mine from Belegarth came over yesterday to have me sew a Knight's tunic for him. It turned out exceptionally well.

Not having the best day today. My stomach is crawling, and I'm feeling bloated and in pain. The plan is to fix that come lunchtime with medication... but sometimes I just wish things weren't the way they are. I'd like to have one normal day.... just once....

...anyway, lots to do. Got a new story to write, and more painting to do. I should clean the house a bit, but we'll see. Have a great Tuesday!

February 10th
I woke up at 4:30 am with serious cramps. I guess it's my fault, because I tried to go to bed early last night and didn't medicate before I did. I guess I could have fixed it when I awoke by the use of medication, but I chose to wait and let my body do its thing until at least a few hours later. Meanwhile, I'm up, and writhing in pain.

Good morning world. It's (bad word) early!

The weather has taken a serious turn for the worst! Yesterday temps dropped by 10-15 degrees and it started to snow. This morning, there's a blanket of the white crap and it's well below the freezing mark. The forecast is for more freezing  temperatures for the rest of the week..... I guess that's because there's a big, important event on Saturday.... Figures.

Well, I should get some writing done. Yesterday, I started painting the red dragon paper mache sculpture I started a couple months ago. Did some cleaning, some writing, and painted on some Nerf guns (For Elegy - another LARP / RPG that takes place in 2047 post-apocalyptic Earth) The guns belong to a good friend, and I'm excited to be able to help with his garb and equipment.

I should jet. I've got lots of time today, so things should get done.... Talk soon.

February 15th
I'm so sorry, Dear Diary, for the length of time that has passed since we last spoke; I've had a busy weekend!

On February 11th, the snow was still falling with temperatures that threatened our event on Saturday. Organizers were worried about the cold snap and how it might affect the planned Allthing. However, after taking into consideration that we would be indoors for much of the event (It was held at my house) we decided to go ahead as planned.

Friday was spent cleaning and preparing. With a budget in mind, I opted to purchase all the food and have it ready to go for Saturday.

I got a call from one of my officers asking if they could stay over and help me decorate in the morning. When I met them uptown, there was THREE people ready to come over and help! How awesome is that?

Turns out the excitement brought in 18 friends!

Saturday was a HUGE SUCCESS! From the great food, the intense battlegames and tournament, to the role playing, it was exceptional!!

Excerpt from the Sunday's edition of the Old Town Tribune
In a rare display of bravado and skill, the Champions of Silva Urbem impressed a crowd of peasants on Saturday during the “LORD AND LADY URBEM” festival. This yearly holiday is celebrated with a tournament that includes several classes of weapons, and an arts competition as well! Contenders are scored not only their battle prowess, but also on many categories of artistic abilities, including painting, singing, sewing, weapon smithing, and even baking!

It was impressive that the event even took place! Organizers were worried about the sudden cold snap in Old Town* as temperatures plummeted and the snow kept falling! The tournament that takes place outdoors was subject to scrutiny as safety officials surveyed the fighting arena for hazards related to the freezing cold, however, after review, the doors to the amphitheatre was opened as planned. The snow kept falling like a thick blanket during the entire time, but no one seemed to notice. The roar of the crowd and the surge of adrenaline pushed the contestants and the cheering spectators to new heights!

As is the custom for the celebration, the woman and men do not compete against each other, but instead fight among their own to determine a winner for each sexes.

Competing for the women, was Luna Werefox, Kitteh LePurr, and Tex. On the men's side, it was Xerox Malthathmyr, Schnitt, Timbit, Torm Celeagaeil, Endrid, Kepi, and Xxai'Lon MaQuesti. These men and women representing the very best from both Silva Urbem and Lichwood Grove, proved just how skilled the Champion classes are! As the metallic ring from weapon striking weapon rang out across the amphitheatre, the citizens of Old Town and surrounding area were energized.

Weapon categories for the tournament were “Single Short”, “Sword and Board”, “Florentine”, “Great / Long” and “Contestant's Choice”.

In the end, the two Champions with the highest score were awarded the coveted titles. The Tengu assassin, Schnitt, was crowned “Lord Urbem”, while the Khajiit monk, Kitteh Lepurr, was crowned “Lady Urbem”.

Everyone had a great time!

One of the event coordinators had this to say about the participants, “It never ceases to amaze me how big of a show these men and women put on! Lord and Lady Urbem was huge success, and we couldn't have done it without the dedicated contestants that come out to these events!” When asked about the upcoming events this Spring and Summer, they urge, “We[sic] encourage everyone to come to see the different things we do at our Allthing events! There's so much to do, and it's fun for the whole family!”

The next date to mark on your calender's is March 26th.

*Southern Ontario – With almost whiteout conditions and temperatures well below freezing, it prompted an extreme weather warning.

 February 16th
I just broke 25 thousand views on my website!! Twenty-Five THOUSAND!!!

Red Wyrmm - Paper Mache
I cannot thank my loyal readers enough!! I remember when I though a few thousand visits to my website was a landmark, and couldn't imagine these kinds of numbers...... I'm making and passing goals by leaps and bounds! Thank you again for helping make this such a success!

I had an interesting conversation with a friend yesterday. She was curious about my retirement plan.......

.....RETIREMENT PLAN?!? By the time the Doctors finally figured out what my medical issues are, I had sold nearly everything to pay for rent, travel expenses and medical costs not covered. THEN, I lost nearly everything else in a fire. Retirement plan? Back in 2014 on that fateful morning when I nearly decided to end it all, I had no ambition to keep moving forward in life. I had come to a dead end, in a town with no future. My Doctor wouldn't help me get the proper treatment, and I had nothing. I was living day-today. NOW, two years after making the life-changing decision to move to Southern Ontario, get proper medical treatment, begin my writing / acting career, and become involved in many community events and groups?.....
Webbed bone-blades on the back of the  neck

.....I don't have a retirement plan, I have a destiny.

My goal is to make "Zzorhn" a household name. I'm the first, but I don't want to be the last. I wish to leave a legacy of philosophy, art, literature, and hopefully film. If I can accomplish as much as I have in the last two years, where will I be in the next five?

Makes you think, doesn't it?

Anywho, have a pleasant day.

February 18th
Woke up to severe cramping and bleeding like a woman during her time of the month. Sorry for being so graphic, Dear Diary, but it needs to be said that today is a complete bust for me......

........I'm out of medication. Day two. Ugh!

Thursday. Normally I should be over at the Lawrence house, but due to a personal matter I am staying at home. My laundry is piling up, and it's been two weeks since I last hung out with my bestie. Tonight is choir, so let's hope that my condition improves by then!

I've been crafting. I've started a new dragon, a wig holder, three new guns, and a rabbit costume.

It's afternoon already and I've got nothing done today. [sigh] Sometimes I just wish things could be normal, even if only for one day.

I gotta go. It hurts to lean over to type right now, and I can barely concentrate. Typing this small entry has taken me an hour...... Hope you have a great day!

February 22nd
Wow! It's Monday already? Where does the time go? I'm exhausted! This weekend was exceptional!

I am so sorry, Dear Diary, that I haven't been able to properly talk to you. I just have no time.... For example... Today I slept in on purpose; after such a busy weekend, I needed the sleep, but now I have to run downtown and probably won't get anything done today.

I have a confession; I'm in a relationship. No names and no details for now, but things are really great in the romance department. No worries, Dear Diary, I'll give you all the details soon......

...but I have no time today. I was supposed to write, sew, clean, and, and, and..... [sigh] So much to do.... Talk soon.

February 24th
It's raining, it's pouring..... a bit windy with temps hovering above the freezing mark. When it comes to Winter, we have really skirted the freezing cold this year.

I am so busy! When my health allows I have been crafting and editing, wriiting and sewing. There are about 10 projects I need to work on, and it seems like I have no time for anything. It really sets me back when my condition does flare up, because it sucks all the wind from my sails.

It should be noted, Dear Diary, that one of the reasons I don't write much to you is because I'm writing my stories and posting them in other places, unlike a year ago where I actually entered stories into my journal. [shrugs] Things change, and I'm no different. In fact, if you go back and reread my stuff you'll notice a serious difference in the quality. I guess the matra claiming that practice makes perfect is indeed true.....

...gotta jet. Talk soon.

March 2nd
Where does the time go?

Please understand, Dear Diary, that I am still writing a journal of sorts, and that is consuming the time I would normally spend with you. Please don't be upset.
Skeleton Warriors - Silva Urbem

My journal I speak of is the "URBEM ARCANA" where I am writing weekly about our adventures in Amtgard. To be fair, I'm not doing much else besides choir and trying to put London's Amtgard chapter on the map (we need more members - join us) and it's consuming much of my time.

Things are good. I'm heading out this afternoon to go and see the lady-friend I spoke of, as well as, participate in a field day at Silva Urbem. Yes, she's a member. Yes, things are pretty serious.

Gotta jet. Much to do and less time to do it in. I'll keep in touch, no worries. Talk soon!

March 7th
I took sick, Dear Diary, and it really knocked me down. There was big plans this weekend for me, and I ended up having to stay home. Ugh! So sucks!

Anyway, good morning, Monday. It's 3 in the AM. Why am I up? Because I basically slept for 24+ hours. Between trying to fight with covers because I was sweating and then freezing, I was back and forth to the bathroom. I couldn't even keep water down! Anyway, here we are and I'm still hurting, but at least I can eat. Just choked back a couple pieces of toast. So, good morning. 

I imagine today will be a great chance to write. I have a whole chapter to work on based on Saturday's events. I hope you're taking the time to read my stories, because they are the reason why I don't write much in my diary. When I'm focused so much on producing quality work, I tend to forget the daily diary entry until it's too late. My apologies, but like I said, I'm busy.

I crafted their garb :)
The weather is fantastic! Another Winter in Southern Ontario has impressed me. While the temperatures DO dip below zero, it doesn't last. Day time temperatures are above freezing and there's very little snow. 

Saturday was great!! We had fighters come in from Kitchener and join us. At the end I used them as NPC's in our adventure (That I now have to go write)  I crafted the garb that the two younger brothers used for our skeleton warriors....

.....I'm really enjoying sewing! You should see all the stuff I'm making.

Anyway, I should get my butt in gear and write that story. I hope you have a great week! Talk soon.

March 8th
Good morning, world. It's wicked early, but I'm not at home.....

.....I'm at Cara's house.

Yep. A name. I spoke with her this morning, and she said it was acceptable to write about her. A beautiful mommy I met in Belegarth last year, who followed me into Amtgard. You might know her better as "Kitteh Lepurr" in our Silva Urbem quests. We've been quietly dating for a couple months now...... Every-time I'm with her it's an adventure!! She's super sweet, caring, and very intelligent! One of the things I enjoy most about her is her whit and charm; she certainly keeps me on my toes when it comes to intellectual matters, and I love to debate with her.

So, there you go, Dear Diary, you finally have a name. You remember the article I wrote last year where I highlighted my reasons for not indulging in everything I do? And, I quote, "When I think back to those days of yore when I was pulling girls pigtails and scratching their name on the chalkboard, there were times when she would say, “Don't tattletale”. A few years later when I suddenly realized girls didn't actually have cooties, I would stencil someone's name on my school binder or write what I thought was a clever love sonnet, only to be met with an outcry of “Don't tell!” Even in High School when I had my first girlfriend, there was still a stigma of “Keep this a secret because my parents will be furious!”

Women tend to like their private lives kept private, regardless of age.

The concept of privacy is not something I'm accustomed to. I've always been in the limelight, centre stage, scrutinized by the public eye, and gleaming like a polished penny for all to see. Blame it on my parents who thought it was great to have me singing in the choir before I could read and pushing me to perform theatrical productions. I grew accustomed to being in the local paper and highlighted by the school. As I grew older, I developed a sense of pride in being something of a small-town celebrity, and the concept of privacy was never a consideration. In short? My life has never been private. Perhaps that's why I have no qualms about posting my diary online for the world to see....

......but let's be real; I seriously don't write about each and every little thing I do."

One of the reasons I haven't been posting in my diary, is because it's hard to NOT say something. It easier to simply say nothing at all. Well, I'm glad we finally got all this formality out of the way, so I can start actually telling you what I've been doing.....

....I went to Cara's last night for supper. We enjoyed a wonderful evening of playing outside with her daughter, and then we watched a couple of movies cuddling on the couch. This morning, we got up and I started working right away. Not surprising that I am suddenly inspired to write, when my soul can sing for joy, right?

It seems like the sun has to struggle to rise each morning, but the temperatures are above freezing. Sure can't wait for sun and real heat!!

Well, speaking of work, I should get my butt in gear. Hope you all have a great day!!

March 9th
Happy Hump Day!

The weather gods are calling for +17 degrees today! In March?! Like, wow! I couldn't be happier of course to see all that cold [bad word] go away, and hope that this is the trend to Spring.

I slept in today, so I don't have much time to goof around play games on Social Media like I normally do (When my disability kicks in) to start my day. Instead, I'll be jumping on the next chapter of Silva Urbem immediately. I have to get it done quickly, because at about 2 pm I have to leave the house and head to Amtgard practise. From there I'll be spending the night at Cara's.

It was kinda weird this morning to wake up alone. While there is something to be said about having your own space, when you desire someone so badly and want to be with them, waking up alone can be lonely..... No worries though, because I woke up to a lovely letter in my private messages on Facebook from her. Sure did make my morning! :)

So, lots of work. Gotta get things ready, pack, write, and clean. I'm feeling pretty decent today (helps when I have meds) so I'm going to take advantage of it!

Talk soon. Have a great day!

March 11
It's Friday!!

I went out with Diane yesterday, but it wasn't our usual weekly  routine. Firstly, she picked me up at Kitteh's house. Second, Diane's dryer is on the Fritz, so I couldn't do laundry. And lastly, we didn't do supper.

What we did is something much more magical.

Diane does her weekly shopping on Thursdays, and yesterday was no different, however, once the groceries were put away we sat on the couch and started talking.

Now, don't get me wrong, Dear Diary, Diane and I talk all the time. What made this moment special, was that neither of us had to do anything, and with nothing to distract us, we engaged in some serious conversation. She showed me a picture album that she recently put together from a stack of pictures she inherited, and we poured over each and every one. The memories came back, and the stories started rolling! We went for lunch, but but I don't think we even lost pace in our talk. It was a great bonding moment filled with laughter and tears.

She dropped me off very early, and I did a bit of writing before I went to choir practise.

O.M.G... You should see the music we are learning in choir! Like, wow! I'm so happy to be involved in such a great organization as First St. Andrew's United Church, but I really wish some of my friends would come with me.... Be nice to have them hear our choir sing...

........anyway, I woke up in Kitteh's arms to a warm winter day. (Yes, it's still Winter) After a couple hours of waking up, I came home to do laundry and write. My deadline is past due, so I gotta crack the whip. (Kitteh offered to crack the whip, but I don't think she meant for me to do much writing...) We have a laundry facility here, but it's coin operated. Fortunately, my sweet kitten gave me enough change to get two loads done! At least I have fresh gitch and socks now.
Lichwood Grove - Kitchener

Well, there's a big weekend ahead of me. Saturday is another adventure at Victoria Park, followed by an invite to go drink beer around a campfire with Kepi. He has promised to ensure I make it to church (he's one of the biggest supporters of ensuring I attend regularly, because he's also my ride to Kitchener, etc) On Sunday afternoon, I'm to NPC in Kitchener at Lichwood Grove.

Better get my butt in gear. [Throws a mean crack of the whip] Gitter done!!!

Have a good one, eh?

March 14th
What a weekend!! I spent Friday night preparing and cleaning up the house. On Saturday morning, I left the house with the intention not to return until Sunday evening.....

.....Amtgard in Victoria Park was a slow day. It's March break, so many people are busy, but Kepi* and I set up a table, did some demonstrations, and signed up a couple more people.

I went back to Kepi's house with his spouse and young son, for a night of "Burgers and Beer". We had a campfire, and I helped clean up the tree branches in the backyard. What a great time!!

Kepi came to Church with me!! The service was a bit on the slow side, but that could have been the "Daylight Savings Time" switch coupled with a teeny hangover. Fortunately, my medical issues were slim, so I wasn't bothered by that. Anyway, church was nice. I enjoyed sharing it with one of my good friends, and I love singing in the choir.

We went straight to Kitchener after Church for another rousing day in Lichwood Grove. (Amtgard) Their field is different than ours, because most people take monks and Barbarians, which are immune to much of my magic...... Still, its a good learning experience, and I always have a great time.

It was an absolutely fantastic weekend of fellowship, celebration, and bonding. I am so humbled by the opportunities and quality of life in Southern Ontario, and I'm thankful for all the friends I have made in just under two years! This weekend might have consisted of purely ordinary events such as attending Church, singing in the choir, combat sports, and a campfire, but for me it was extraordinary! I've made a real life for myself in London, and I couldn't be happier!

So, here we are, Monday..... It's raining and misty. The snow is completely gone now and the trees are even starting to bud. Can't wait for Spring, and some warm sunshine!!

Well, off to write. Hope you have a great March Break, and I'll talk to you soon!

*Amtgard name. Real name is Jeff.

March 16th - 12 am
Good morning. Why am I up so late? I made the mistake of drinking coffee at 8 pm. Oops....

...It's Hump Day!

I got home a bit ago. I've been over at Kitteh's house for the last day or so. I even borrowed her computer to work on the next chapter of Silva Urbem. OH! I DID finish the first part of "On The Offensive". Have a read... I'll wait.

Done already? What do you think? You have to remember, Dear Diary, that I still receive letters from all around the world, and would love to hear from you! Drop me a comment, or send me an email.

So, as you can see, I've been writing my butt off! I've found a niche, and while you might just think that I'm penning a simple storyline for my local Amtgard park, what I am actually doing is writing a full novel to use as a springboard to catapult my writing, and hopefully get something actually printed.

As they say, there's always a madness to my method...... Or, is it the other way around?

 I'm in a creative spirit, and I'm home. I think I'm going to try and write a bit. Talk soon.

March 23rd
Whoops! There's more than a few days that have gone by. It started out so innocent; no internet at my house for three days put a serious damper on things, and coupled with the fact I haven't always been in front of a computer it made for a double whammy. Sorry, Dear Diary, but I've been busy.....

.....I had an amazing weekend! Friday night was spent with Kitteh, and then we went to Silva Urbem field at Victoria Park. We had a decent turnout! After that Kitteh and I went to my place for an evening of Netflix and Chill.

Church on Sunday morning, and off to Kitchener to join their Amtgard chapter, Lichwood Grove.

On Monday afternoon I went home. Needless to say I was exhausted, and unfortunately my disability flared up fiercely! I didn't get much done, and the internet was garbage at best.

Tuesday was spent cleaning and writing. I'm trying hard to catch up on the Silva Urbem storyline!

So, that brings me to today. Happy Hump Day! I'm over at Kitteh's and using her internet to write at least one journal entry. Not to say it will be much of an entry, as she's already calling me to go and play a game of Risk with her and a couple of friends. We'll talk soon, Dear Diary, I promise! 

March 24th - 11 pm
Good evening! Hope you had a good day! Mine was actually pretty good, considering.....

...woke up to a massive flare up! The fact that I was in Kitteh's house made for a difficult time, because I wasn't able to do my usual routine when things go sour, and I couldn't go anywhere until my intestinal issues died down. The freezing rain and hail threatened to completely drench me as well, so I made the best of it and stayed until 4 pm this afternoon! Guess what? I spent most of the days relaxing and cuddling with Kitteh! It turned out to be a wonderful day!

When life throws you lemons, make lemonade.

I finally was able to make it home, but only in time to get ready to head back out to choir. On the way I stopped in to see a buddy, and he helped me out with a teeny bit of meds. At least I can deal with things for a day or so.

Choir is amazing!! I really wish my family could hear the music we're doing! On Friday and Sunday we will be singing with an additional 15 choir members, and a whole orchestra!! Can you imagine the sound? It still gives me chills to be performing the kind of music we're singing!

Anyway, it's late. I should go to bed. Have a good one, eh?

March 28th
Still no decent internet at my place, and if I'm not writing I'm busy doing something else. Good morning, Dear Diary, it's Easter Monday.

This weekend was a blast! On Friday morning I went to Church. The service gave me chills! Between the amazing performance by the joint choir of First St. Andrew's and Metropolitan United Church accompanied by the First St. Andrew's String orchestra, to the wonderful message by Michelle Down and other invited guests, it was amazing! When the cross draped in the cloth and crown of thorns was raised to the ceiling, it really put things into perspective for me. I feel so blessed both in spirit and fellowship.

I spent Friday night alone, and went to bed early.

Woke up Saturday to a gloomy day, but the forecast was calling for sun in the afternoon. Good thing too, because, our Amtgard Allthing (major event) was scheduled for 12 pm at Victoria Park. I got ready, and headed downtown. It was an awesome time! I dressed up as the Whiter Rabbit, and sprinkled coloured eggs filled with candies and chocolate on our side of the park. When the kidlets of the Shire started collecting them, I shouted, "STEALING MY EGGS", and chased them. Eventually, I was "killed" by boffer, and the group claimed their reward. A feast consisting of roast beef and all the fixings was served.

After the event, Cara came over for a night of frivolity and excitement.

I awoke Sunday morning, and headed off to Church. The service was exceptional! The string orchestra was joined by a brass section, and our choir performed  three anthems! While I am certainly enjoying the fellowship of the First St Andrew's United Church, I really wish that someone would come with me....

.....movie night at Cara's rounded out the last half of the day.

So, I'm not spending much time at my place, but can you blame me? Being stuck with no internet access and by myself makes for productivity, but certainly is boring.

So, here it is Monday. The weather is completely garbage with high sinds and freezing rain. I'm at Cara's house, but will have to somehow get home. Ugh! PLEASE bring on the sun and heat FFS! It's past due!

Hope you have a great week! Things are still busy for me, and I have a ton of things to do. Talk soon,


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